Freak Out Moments











So Nottingham is the kind of city that has good points and bad, like any city in the world and this weekend a good thing happened. A convention that was backed by lots of great names, people and business that we wouldn’t otherwise see. It however did have some down-sides which I am going to try and cover without bias.

So I am going to cover the downs before I do the goods, it seems that the venue picked wasn’t big enough, however to be honest it’s one of those catch 22’s isn’t it? You want to do something without risking a terrible loss of money. It’s a business as much as a passion for many people. Money is the be-all end-all of these scenario’s and let’s also remember these people are still going to have to pay bills as much as anyone else there. That said if the venue’s going over it’s capacity on tickets alone perhaps it’s time to show a little restraint there, oversell them a little for the ones not likely to show up but seriously think about what to do there.

It was a venue for around 800 folks and already there are thousands estimated on the list. A shame because bad names and rep’s are not what you want first time out. So for those that had a bad experience I truly hope you will see what they plan for next year before deciding “Never again!”. But again I can understand why people will make that decision, even with a refund at the door if you have travelled for a significant period, booked hotels and hyped up for a great day out, you really are going to walk way disappointed, and angry. The only thing I’d say is it’s not the crew’s fault and people complain so liberally about the volunteers and people that do come to help that I think that aspect is very unfair… they were doing their best to help everyone, it is a shame it didn’t go to plan. I hope that people will make the proper complaints to the proper channels and receive a worthy response back, but don’t attack the people who couldn’t affect that please?

All that aside, there was a lot to do in a very small space. The weather was nice and so you could enjoy the outside as much as in, we saw some great friends outside and chatted to some new ones too. It was lovely to be able to see a variety of costumes across the various genre’s and the guests were all very engaging.

We queued at 10am, myself and a friend of mine dressed as Arnold Rimmer and both of us were unfortunately a little under the weather but none-the-less determined to see what it held. The first apology came when the crew told us that some guests had been delayed and it had put back the set up. No matter, Stormtroopers, Ghostbusters and the Stig were all happy to entertain us without delay.

The venue really was small which meant it took a lot to get around the stalls, and once the talks and bits were over we were interested in we headed outside. Actually outside was just lovely, the sun and the cosplayers outside were fantastic, we got some great pictures of people there doing what they do best… dressing up, conversing and supporting the community. As a cosplayer it was certainly outside that I enjoyed more than in.

This is starting to become a bit more indicative of most conventions though, I find if the weather is good you really do want to go outside, snap pics and not be pushed around by crowds. Oh listen to me what an anti-social moo!  Here are a few pictures from the day. I’ll load more to my Deviant Art or facebook *via Cosplay Without Bias* and if you were there, good or bad experience, I hope that if you met me (dressed as Dante) it was a pleasurable experience. I know I enjoyed meeting everyone there that I did. (I also think the Joker in the below picture requires a medal as he was one of those folk that travelled for miles but still kept a positive outlook!)

Birmingham MCM next week, lets hope I can give more positive feedback than I have here, but overall I hope next year will be a bigger and better event.

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{October 11, 2013}   The Fat Factor and photography

I am realistic, I am a big girl. I know this, to be honest we are ALL aware of our own bodies and size.  Don’t be fooled into thinking I am unaware of my own shape and size, and why? I was for many years a dancer and singer and very slender. I was toned, I did ballet, jazz and tap, I danced for two to three hours a day and I would ride horses around when I wasn’t in school/college/work.

I didn’t have a full time office job, I wasn’t subject to injuries and at the time I wasn’t even aware of the horrifically cruel things human’s would do to one another just to make themselves feel better. And that’s the crux of this post…

I shied away from my picture being taken for years after I exited the entertainment business. At size 8-10 with fairly decent figure, fit, healthy, brown hair and brown eyed I was told more often than I would care to mention – you are too fat, need to loose a couple pounds. Basically in order to satisfy a man’s ideals instead of being happy that I was healthy they wanted me to starve. Ballet Dancers aren’t allowed to eat, shit or drink like a human they are expected to be some form of bone with a fleshy cling-film overlay.

My impression of the cosplay world for those that want to take it seriously is that it is just as brutal and rude. CRUDE would be a good word. I am not thin, I am not going to slim down for THEM I do it for me!

I have downsized from a UK 24 to an 18 in the last year, I have done it with a healthier eating pattern and by taking walks. I have done this for me not for a media photographer and yet I still see girls who are perfectly healthy and normal being told they are too fat, their breasts are too small.

It actually makes you feel disappointed that in a day and age where we are so willing to fight for the rights of a murder, or rapist that nothing is said about the media portrayal of people.  It’s easier to poke fun at the “fat bitch” than to think, hey she’s really fighting to get up in the morning, to do the right thing, I should ask her how she’s feeling… I should keep my damned abusive mouth shut.

It is true I feel that you can avoid internet bullying, but I also think it’s important to understand people that feel bullied won’t know how to deal with it. Sometimes we aren’t equipped with the mindset to walk away, you sit in front of the PC and see those comments, “fat” “ugly” “worthless” and buried in the myriad of beautiful praises they stand out, they are negative and they are hurtful. Internet trolls aren’t even clever people, they just think they are. Personally they are the ones I feel more sorry for when I sit down to analyse it, after all they are that needy for attention they have to try to destroy other people’s creativity and happiness.

So I guess really what I am saying is, I don’t think it’s important to you as a person if you cosplay and they ignore your costume for the thing girl. I’ve been physically pushed aside by men for a picture of a prettier girl by the way…

It is more important to evaluate your self-worth. I find this hard but here’s my example!

I love what I do, I have a balance of life and work, I love my friends and family equally. I won’t judge you as a man or woman, I will judge you as a person. I am not blind to my follies and faults, I will adapt and try to move forwards. I WILL love you no matter your size and I DO care if you are upset.

And, if anyone ever wants to talk to me outside of my blogs you can find me on facebook.

Take care all,

GearsGirl



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